"I want to be very clear that I recommend this lifestyle for no one. It is easy enough to cross the line because the line is invisible. Much harder still to go back, to return to a time when you shared no piece of yourself with strange men, men you don’t like, even men who don’t like you.

I detached myself completely from the work I was doing and felt that I was getting off scot-free with minimal psychological impact. I was having fun at first; I felt beautiful and confident and adored and I was financially secure for the first time ever. But those nights found their way underneath my skin. They just burrowed down deep under the folds of my subconscious like a rat nestled at the bottom of a shopping bag."

"College provides a lot of downtime, and for a brief while before I wandered into the Erotic Services section, I was a little obsessed with casually encountering half the metro area...

...After a few months of it, I got over my initial addiction, but the whole thing got me thinking about the nature of sexuality. I was enjoying the casual sex, REALLY enjoying it, but it wasn’t necessarily my overwhelming attraction to the guys or the quality of the sex that made it exciting. It was the dirty jolt of excitement that comes from spontaneous, uninhibited sex with someone you barely know. If I was doing it for fun, why couldn’t I do it for money?"